In the end

I just inspired by this song. I feel like 'in the end, it does not even matter' after I did a lot of things and a lot of sacrifices for it, but in the end it does not mean anything. I just feel that it was in vain. I wanna give up, but I don't. I wanna forget all this things, but I can't. One thing, which make me lost my way, trying to hold on, but didn't even know. What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when.

I tried so hard and got so far
In the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
In the end it doesn't even matter
(Linkin Park, In the End)