, dad

i love you dad, no matter how lot we argue or how over you act to protect me. no matter how bad the day i spent with your silence. no matter how hard my heart beats when i was starting to enter the door through 9 pm. no matter how bad your selfish decision. no matter how hard you warn me not to hang out when i really want to. no matter how bleeding i am inside cause you ignore me. no matter how long i hold on from not making a conversation with you because me too afraid staring at your eyes. no matter how down me showing my bad score to you. no matter how much tears that fall down successfully from my eyes for every time i remember you.

beside all of that, you're my number one hero. you're my biggest motivator. you're my strongest man that i've ever met. i couldn't find any other words to explain how much i need you to spend the rest of my life with. you beat me down, but you make me strong dad. we both know we never really know each other. but we also both know we really love each other. thanks for everything, you mean a lot to me. and in everything i hurt you, i'do anything for you can forgive me. you love me, i know that. i really know that. but your act hides that.

let me make you feel the luckiest daddy in the world for having daughter like me. someday, let me sketch the biggest proud smile on your face for my succeed. someday, i will. i'd do.

i love you, dad.

pemenang itu

pemenang itu gaperna berhenti. pemenang itu jalan terus, kalo capek, ya jalan pelan-pelan, tapi pasti. yang jelas nggak berhenti. pemenang itu berprinsip lebih baik jalan lambat tapi pasti daripada jalan cepat tapi banyak berhenti. pemenang itu sesekali noleh ke belakang dan lanjut jalan lagi. bukan noleh ke belakang, tertarik, keasikan, berhenti, dan malah stuck disitu. pemenang itu bikin jalan baru, bukan lewat jalan yang sudah ada. pemenang itu..

(isi sendiri ya, kalian yang calon-calon pemenang:)))

someday

all stories, struggle, sorrow, pain, sacrifices, tears, sadness, being replaced, being blamed, desperate, down, tears, tears, tears, and work hard pray hard, are just the beginning. of all.

Allah knows. Allah listens. He doesn't ignore. He walks with me.

no succeed that doesn't need sacrifices. no glory that doesn't need struggle. no victory that doesn't need work hard. success doesn't come to me. i do.

simpan dulu semua payahku. akan saya ceritakan nanti setelah sukses.

people will change the way they look at me. we'll see! i will make them gawk for me. yes, someday.

victory, i will pick you up.