setelah satu tahun lebih lamanya, he is back. btw setahun itu lama nggak sih? lama kan ya?
ya selama setahun itu aku kenal sama seseorang yang bukan dia di depanku. even though i stand in front of him, like he never realizes that i was there at that time.
bukan never realize sih, but pretend not realize.
kaya dia selalu menghindar. kaya dia berusaha gimana caranya biar ga ada kontak sama aku. dan semacamnya lah. dan itu ngebuat saya wuh gabisa digambarin gimana rasanya. semacam perang batin, and hurt ofcourse.
tapi seiring berjalannya waktu, God always gives the best thing at the best time, right?
yeah! ya yang begini ini ni! being real. feeling cozy. no more pretend. no more hurt. i got him back!
no more awkward moment when i was trying to talk anything to him. unlike before, just for calling his name, take a great courage for me not to feel awkward. especially if he's calling my name, feelin awkward at all. but now, no more fuckin feeling like that. just get laugh and laugh together.
yang kaya begini ini yang saya pengeni. yah walopun dia masih sering kumat dan bikin bdmd. juga masih sangat unpredictable. rada' aneh, tapi saya seneng kok kaya begini ini. no more hurt. no more tears. no more pretend.
although i have no longer more feeling to him. not anymore. haha
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