perangdingin~

perang dingin itu perangnya orang dewasa.

diem. seakan ga terjadi apa-apa. padahal ada apa-apa.

cukup bikin luka di dalem. karena yg ngerasain itu batin kita. bukan perang fisik, ataupun adu mulut. bukan. ya diem aja gitu. sampe berhari-hari bahkan.

kayanya lebih baik perangnya anak kecil. marahan sama temennya. berantem, ejek-ejekan, trus nangis, trus temenan lagi. selesai. clear.

kalo perang dingin ya diem, ga saling sapa, marahan, dipendem sendiri, nangis sendiri, selesai nangis, nangis lagi, sakitnya di dalem, lebih nyesek, nggak plong, nggak bisa dilampiaskan. dan keadaan seperti itulah yg bisa bikin orang depresi. stress. trus ada niatan pengen mati.

sadis ya. padahal perangnya ga ngapa-ngapain, cuma diem.

dan untuk bisa ngelarin perang itu, caranya cuma satu. salah satu dari pihak yg lagi perang kudu ada yg berani mulai duluan, setidaknya ngerubah suasana lah biar adem dikit. tapi untuk ngelakuin itu emang susah. karena orang dewasa itu justru gengsinya selangit. egonya gede.

repot. mending jadi anak kecil ya? hidup gak ribet.

ya gak?

time by time

review-ing semua postingan dari awal aku bikin blog sampe sekarang.
lucu.
dulu tata bahasaku masih nggak karuan. but now, i have some progresses lah =))
dulu curcolanku puanjang lebar. maklum masih ga punya malu =))
dulu sering bgt nyampah ga jelas. masih belom bisa nempatin diri di situasi yg tepat untuk nulis =))
dulu kayanya bukan saya banget =))

intinya, dulu beda bgt sama sekarang. yah, waktu pasti ngebawa kita pada perubahan kan?
dan apa yg saya tulis sekarang ini, bisa jadi lucu juga nantinya kalo dibaca pas satu atau dua tahun ke depan. pas waktu udah berubah, udah bukan sekarang lagi. pas aku udah ngalami progress lebih lanjut. pas aku bakal bilang lagi kalo "ini bukan saya banget."
ya, kita kan nggak tau apa yg bakal terjadi next year. berubah itu pasti.

but the most important thing is, keep go ahead. changing without progress is useless. isn't it?

judge me

wise man once said, "don't judge a book by its cover."
it means, you have to know it first, then you may judge it later.

lilbit strange for me. why should somebody lets the other person to know how his truly life. how his habits. who he is within.
i mean, is it alright, if you let the other person get to know you closer? knowing your life? stalk what you did?
definitely not. not at all.

if i may say, my life is not yours. and it's not your business. everyone just needs to know me, but they don't have to really know who i am. inside.

so, what i'm going to say is, "you don't need to know who really i am. simply, please judge me. it's your right."

love in life

"life is like a box of chocolate. you never know what you're gonna get." -Forrest Gump

it means, you'll never know what chocolate will you get before you open it. and you'll never know what taste will you get before you taste it.

love also can be defined as such.
between life and love, has always have a connection. it's absolute. and it can't be denied.
i prefer to define love like that. not poetic words. not a phrase. not a play on words.
but which i define, is a FACT.

that's love in life. fit the fact.

errrrr

people who ever come in my life, many of them were wearing masks. no one has the mask in front of me, some are only open when behind me. even some that haven't been open at all masks.
but sometimes, some of them are masked successfully disrupt my life. sometimes we meet a lot of fuckin' people. they're really suck!

when the time come, i hope that i'll just realize that they're nothing compared to us.